Laura

I have two job fairs coming up ... one on April 4th that has important MI school districts like Walled Lake, South Lyon, Farmington, Livonia, and such. Then, on April 16th there's a Teacher Job Fair at EMU. That is basically all out-of-state districts ... like North Carolina, Texas, Virgina, Florida, Georgia, Washington, California. Some of those places I wouldn't consider moving to (i.e. Claifornia because it costs way too much money to buy a piece of pizza, of course we could always live with my aunt and uncle for a while ... ). But then there are places - like North Carolina, Georgia, Virginia, (and possibly Washington just to keep Arthur happy, haha) where I could see myself moving.

It would be so exciting ... leaving this place. Meeting new people, seeing new things, experiencing a fresh, new life ... warmer weather. Granted, a lot of this is probably stemming from the fact that it snowed 3 inches last night and that doesn't help my winter depression that I have found myself in.

Anyways, this all started when I saw that the starting salary at one of the schools in Georgia is 40,000! That's crazy high. I would probably be starting here at 25,000. Apparently, a lot of the out-of-state schools will hire you on the spot at the job fair. I wouldn't know what to say to that. I want to.

My mom would kill me ...

So 95% of people have mono by the age of 25. I am now included in that 95%. I never did like feeling like an outcast.

Yuck.

my mom's 50th birthday is tomorrow. i'm attempting my first carrot cake. whoever thought of making a cake out of carrots?? that's odd.

i cried for my first time during student teaching - dang hormones being all messed up. at least the kids weren't in the room. however, i am proud of myself for making it this far without having a breakdown.

we're going to florida in may :) i'm so excited. a couple nights in disney, a couple days by the beach, catch-up time with my florida family. it should be grand.

in other news, i'm keeping my fingers crossed...everything crossed - except my legs. otherwise, it wouldn't be possible. hah! sorry, that was unecessary. i thought it was kind of funny though. anyways...i'm really hoping it happens this time. really, really hoping. wishing and praying and all that good stuff.

call me crazy, but i actually want to teach today.

salt the roads, please?

uh...i'm getting all pissy about myself again.

there are people that make me angry at them for not being cool enough, and then there are people that make me angry at myself for not being cool enough.

i'm bummed.


i really want this to happen...soo much. am i crazy for wanting it so bad?


i got new glasses. they're pretty cute - different form the norm.

i want a makeover - body and mind...partial.

i miss you.

i, i, i, i, i....am selfish sometimes. sorry.


is this making any sense?

So my cousin Mike (from Florida) is in the hospital right now. He was hit by someone who ran a red light this morning. He's in a neckbrace, with an IV, but he can feel his legs (they hurt a lot, but at least he can feel them).

I'm so worried. I want to talk to him...dang them moving to FLorida!

**EDIT** - he is okay now...he's home, no broken bones, just in pain.

Yay - it's my first official snow day as a teacher. How exciting ... now what do I do?

As an update from the last post - nothing spectacular is happening. In fact ... nothing at all is happening. My body apparently doesn't want to work the correct way for me, or something like that. Oh well. I'm taking medicine now and soon I'll be taking more medicine. So maybe something will happen then. I'm bummed, to say the least. I know, I know - we're still young and have plenty of time to do this stuff. I just want it done now. I think that would work best for us. And he's already gotten so excited about it. I hated telling him what was going on...

In other news, I'm thinking about volunteering at the Detroit Zoo this summer. You only need 20 hours per year to stay on their list. I think it would be a great experience and would look really good on my resume.

Alright, it is now time to go back to sleep for me. I'm so excited to spend my day being lazy again...i'ts been so long.

Went to the doctors this morning - got my blood taken.


We'll see what happens

So I love my kids. And yes, I can call them my kids now because today when I went to pick them up from the door after recess, I told the supervisor I needed "Poma's Kids" and they all said "No, we're Wakeford's kids, too!" So that made me happy.

I've been doing the morning work and read-alouds with them. I also did a lesson of word study and I'm going to pick up another subject next week.

I feel so comfortable there. I realize now that this is really what I want to be doing with my life. It makes me happy. Even though there can be annoying kids and stupid parents who think the school is something its not, I am learning from the other teachers' experiences on how to deal with those situations.

I'm pretty happy.

So, it's been over a year since I lasted posted an entry in here. That's crazy! I can't believe a year has gone by so quickly.

We're having our Christmas Party at daycare today. I spent the last week making 10 scrapbooks for these kids. I'm getting really sad, because this is the last month I'll be here with them. Jenny gave me my Christmas present today - a $100 gift card to Target with a note that said "Thank you so much for everything. We sure will miss you next year". Dang, I've been here 3 years. I've known some of these kids since they were 3 months old. Oh well, life goes on. Starting January 2nd, I will become attached to a new group of kids I guess. A class of apparently wonderful 2nd graders at Wixom Elementary. I'm going to be their teacher! Ahh!

On Sunday is mine and Arthur's 1 year anniversary. We're celebrating on Saturday by going to Greenfield Village's Holiday Nights. It should be fun. They have carolers and fireworks.

Well, I think that's about it. I know, I have such an exciting life - a year goes by and that's all I have to say. Hah!

Just do you know I am no longer a depressed bride-to-be.

I got to wear my wedding dress - well, sort of, they have to let it out a size, so it wasnt zipped up all the way - and anyways, it made me really happy. I <3 my dress.

And everything else is coming together nicely.

This doesn't get read anymore...so I figured this would be safest on here...

I feel like I have hit a new low.
A new low level of energy (and health)
A new low level of care
A new low level of self-esteem

I'm laying in bed tonight and getting all worked up over how miserable I am going to be on my wedding day because I won't be happy with how I look. I'm going to be marrying the love of my life...the only person I want to be with...and all I can think about is how upset I'm going to be with myself.

What's wrong with me?

I have a million things to do. By tomorrow.

I have a month until the wedding.

I cannot go to sleep, even after taking nyquil.

I hate this.

I want to curl up in a ball and hide from the world.

I have to meet with the stupid organist tomorrow to go over songs. I don't care what songs you play. Play whatever you damn well please. And I have to leave 2 hours earlier tha nomrla to tell her this.

I can't stand this anymore. I hate myself. I hate school. I hate the fact that I want to quit school. So close...so close to quitting. Everything.

So I just spent the last 3 hours at the Huron Valley Hopsital...and all for them to let me know to take Motrin regularly for the next few days.

I have some sort of virus in my cartiledge around my ribs...which is making my back/chest hurt so much that it burns when I take in a deeper breathe than normal.

So that's exciting.

In conclusion: I will be hanging around Arthur's all day tomorrow during my day of rest...after taking 4 Motrin200's.

What a trip.

This weather makes me want to drive around with Sarah and Erin all layered up with nowhere to go (maybe to the cider mill to get the candy sticks and carmel apples, to the salvation army to see who could get the cutest shirt, to downtown Farmington to the Grand Cafe or the Haunted WInery)...

Just for old times sake, I downloaded New Found Glory's new CD and added some old Christina Aguilera songs to it...it makes me happy. Especially when I listen to "Beautiful" - then I just laugh - a lot.

I also really enjoy Ben Kweller's new CD. It's cute.

"I like your sundress"

That is all.

I feel like a failure...I have to drop one of my classes because I can't deal with 17 credits worth of work. I'm giving up one of my easiest jobs just because it adds one more thing to my list every week. My list makes me feel crazy...

I hope I don't feel like this for the next three months.

I've cried so much the past three days...over nonsense. I know everything always works out fine. He always reassures me of this, too. I just can't seem to allow myself to believe at the time that I am freaking out.

School.
Daycare.
Olga's.
Homework.
Limo.
Cake.
Flowers.
Tuxes.
Shoes.
Dress fittings.
Reception menu.
Hair decisions.
Invitations.
Programs.
Thank yous from the shower.
Gym???

And here I go again...

I need a break. A nice week long break where I can just sit around in the sunshine and relax, drinking and eating all day. Too bad I have to wait until this is all over to get it.

I also need to lose about 30 pounds so that I can look like I'm not stuffed into my dress, with all of my overfill hanging out. Gross.

I can't wait until January...

I do want to say that my bridal shower was amazing. Thank you to those who showed up...it meant a lot that you were there (and sat through the excruciatingly long time of opening gifts). However, I am not putting up any pictures because I looked horrible (why didn't anyone tell me?).

Oh well. I guess I have to get used to that. I haven't enjoyed any pictures of me for the last year. It's dissapointing.

And now I'm going to get back to the enourmous amount of homework that I have been working on for the last 4 hours...

Happy Labor Day!
And then unhappy back-to-school day tomorrow :(


My Florida trip was a lot of fun.


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there's more but I don't know how to do cuts...oh well...

I'm leaving for Florida tomorrow at 9am. I'm so excited to see my cousins and the new baby (well, he's not really all that new anymore - 5 months).
I hope it doesn't rain as much as the weather channel said it's supposed to.
Arthur's letting me borrow his iPod so that I can feel cool.
I'm baby-sitting today, and I'm incredibly bored.
I lost another pound. It's slowly, but surely, coming along.
I hope I don't give everything up in Florida, although it's going to be very tempting. Mike works at a sports bar that I'm SURE we're going to eat at a couple times, plus my Uncle works at Hostess so there's always yummy snack foods laying around.
This compuer is really hard to type on, the keys keep sticking.
The wedding shower planning is rather exciting. I can't believe it's only like 3 weeks away. Then after that is the wedding. Crazy crazy stuff.

Keep it crackin' like a bubble pop pop pop

I lost my first 2 pounds on Weight Watchers after my first week was through (and I didn't even follow it for 3 out of the 7 days because I was up north and didn't have too much healthy food around.) True motivation stepping on the scale when you're expecting it to have gone up 3 pounds to see that it has gone down.

Now I just need to start working in exercising into my schedule and everything will go prety well, I think.

Speaking of schedule...I'm working at Olga's 4-5 night a week now, doing my nanny thing 2 days a week, come September I'll be working at the daycare about 15 hours a week, going to school with 17 credits, and working at Olga's 4-5 night a week (about 25 hours). I'm excited. I've been so bored lately...

I leave for Florida in a week :)

That's about all. I hope everyone is doing well.

everything's the same. nothing completely life changing has happened...

arthur and i went to bass lake last weekend (as adult chaperones for our church's youth group). it made me really upset that i was never a counselor there. completely bummed. and then i realized that there's nothing i can do about it and i shouldn't let it ruin my last day there. plus, three of the girls in the cabin were really mean and crabby. i didn't enjoy them. arthur, candida (another church's adult leader) and i did have a splended time walking around ALL Of Michi-Lu-Ca to find 2 of Candida's lost campers at 1:00 in the morning. next year bob lenz is going to be there...pregnant or not, i am going!

i started weight watchers. it's my second day on it and i'm pretty sure i gained about 5 pounds today. haha. oh well, im just hoping it will get easier as i get used to everything. i need to start exercising again...really bad.

olga's is alright. i like it a lot better than red robin and am making pretty good money there (70 bucks for a 4 1/2 hour monday night shift).

arthur and i are going up north this weekend as one last bang before our lives get really busy again. i'm excited. i love it up there on the lake. it's so relaxing.

that's about all. i'm just bored and decided i should update, not that anyone reads it. haha. it's ok, it's always fun to pretend that people care...

This is no fun anymore. Everybody's old and have too busy of lives to take time out of their day to update their journal - as I am finding for myself as well. (The only reason I am able to now is because I have only 1 class left for this semester, with only 2 weeks left meaning no real homework except for studying for the final next week).

My mom, Amy, and I are taking a girl week vacation down to florida to visit my aunt, uncle, cousins, and the new baby. I'm so excited. I cannot wait.

The new house is still alright. I'm here tonight, which is another reason why I have time to get on here. Also the fact that I killed my back on the trampoline 2 weeks ago and it still isn't fully healed. There goes any exercising for a little while. Which I'm bummed, I was excited to be able to go jogging down this road every morning. I think it would be so peaceful.

The deer come out every night. There have been a couple baby ones too. They're adorable.

I can't believe what a difference out here makes from being in Wixom. I wonder what I would be like if I had lived here for 15 years, instead of Wixom. I can't even begin to imagine it...but it makes me curious.

I've been watching A Baby Story and Bringing Home Baby a lot these past couple weeks. I'm craving motherhood. I know, I know, not yet. But I've given it a lot of serious consideration and it's a possibility for next year??? Who knows. We'll have to see in how much of a financial burden situation Arthur and I will be in. It will work out pretty well as far as school goes, because after Winter semester (of 07) all I will have left is student teaching...which can be held off for a couple of semesters if need be, and in the mean time I can sub.

Well, my legs and toes are falling off from being right on top of the ac vent.

I must move.