Sun, Sep. 21st, 2008, 10:32 am
Just Because ... new name:
I can't believe I let myself do this ... again. I'm back up to a horrible weight. I feel unhealthy. Sluggish. Lazy. Upset. Fat.
This is stupid.
It's not going to be easy getting rid of it again, either. I'm going to be starting a medicine soon (hopefully within the next week if everything keeps going the way it is) and one of the side effects is extreme hunger. Luckily I only have to take the medicine for 5 days, but if it does what it's supposed to do then the weight won't be coming off anytime soon.
I never thought that at 23 I'd be feeling like this. I had finally reached a point where I was happy with myself. What happened?
I also never thought that at 23 I'd be dealing with infertility issues.
Thu, Jun. 19th, 2008, 01:46 pm
Crazy Life ...
I have 4 applications in to 4 job postings that have come up on the Oakland County Schools Consortium. However, there are probably about 30,000 other people who have their applications into those opening as well. One is for Oxford, one is for Lake Orion, and two are for Rochester. It's about time these things started popping up.
Now, I just have to sit and wait to see if anything comes of these.
I also have to pass my stupid Social Studies Certification test. I hate that thing. This will be my 3rd time taking it! It's so embarassing realizing that I have failed this test twice. I hate that word - fail. But, it's what I did. Now I have to pay another $85.00 to see if I can not fail it in July.
And then, what to do with our house? We were supossed to be re-doing the second bedroom/office this weekend. Taking out the carpet and put in Pergo floors, putting drywall up over the knotty pine paneling on the walls, and getting some storage cabinets so it looks a lot bigger, brighter, and cleaner in this room. However, if I get a job out in Oxford or one of those areas, we will have to move or else it will be an hour drive to and from work everyday for me. If we do have to move, I do not want to feel like we wasted $1,000 re-doing this room for nothing. We also had to pass up an AMAZING house opportunity in Howell. Brand new construction, over two-thousand square feet, basement, appliances, all the upgrades were included in ths price, in a huge, Wexford Mews sized neighborhood (which is my dream to be able to live in a neighborhood like that some day soon, when we have kids), for only $180,000. We can't live in Howell if I get a job on Oxford or Lake Orion or Rochester. And Howell is not hiring right now.
I do not like living in uncertainty. I don't know what's going to happen and it's really starting to get to me. I feel like I can't do anything.
I'm excited for Allan to come back to Michigan tomorrow so that we can go out and I can drink a little bit. I need something biiiiigggg.
I have two job fairs coming up ... one on April 4th that has important MI school districts like Walled Lake, South Lyon, Farmington, Livonia, and such. Then, on April 16th there's a Teacher Job Fair at EMU. That is basically all out-of-state districts ... like North Carolina, Texas, Virgina, Florida, Georgia, Washington, California. Some of those places I wouldn't consider moving to (i.e. Claifornia because it costs way too much money to buy a piece of pizza, of course we could always live with my aunt and uncle for a while ... ). But then there are places - like North Carolina, Georgia, Virginia, (and possibly Washington just to keep Arthur happy, haha) where I could see myself moving.
It would be so exciting ... leaving this place. Meeting new people, seeing new things, experiencing a fresh, new life ... warmer weather. Granted, a lot of this is probably stemming from the fact that it snowed 3 inches last night and that doesn't help my winter depression that I have found myself in.
Anyways, this all started when I saw that the starting salary at one of the schools in Georgia is 40,000! That's crazy high. I would probably be starting here at 25,000. Apparently, a lot of the out-of-state schools will hire you on the spot at the job fair. I wouldn't know what to say to that. I want to.
My mom would kill me ...
Sat, Mar. 15th, 2008, 10:08 am
So 95% of people have mono by the age of 25. I am now included in that 95%. I never did like feeling like an outcast.
Fri, Feb. 22nd, 2008, 10:57 pm
my mom's 50th birthday is tomorrow. i'm attempting my first carrot cake. whoever thought of making a cake out of carrots?? that's odd.
i cried for my first time during student teaching - dang hormones being all messed up. at least the kids weren't in the room. however, i am proud of myself for making it this far without having a breakdown.
we're going to florida in may :) i'm so excited. a couple nights in disney, a couple days by the beach, catch-up time with my florida family. it should be grand.
in other news, i'm keeping my fingers crossed...everything crossed - except my legs. otherwise, it wouldn't be possible. hah! sorry, that was unecessary. i thought it was kind of funny though. anyways...i'm really hoping it happens this time. really, really hoping. wishing and praying and all that good stuff.
Tue, Feb. 19th, 2008, 06:30 am
call me crazy, but i actually want to teach today.
salt the roads, please?
Wed, Feb. 13th, 2008, 02:08 pm
uh...i'm getting all pissy about myself again.
there are people that make me angry at them for not being cool enough, and then there are people that make me angry at myself for not being cool enough.
i really want this to happen...soo much. am i crazy for wanting it so bad?
i got new glasses. they're pretty cute - different form the norm.
i want a makeover - body and mind...partial.
i miss you.
i, i, i, i, i....am selfish sometimes. sorry.
is this making any sense?
Sat, Feb. 2nd, 2008, 12:43 pm
So my cousin Mike (from Florida) is in the hospital right now. He was hit by someone who ran a red light this morning. He's in a neckbrace, with an IV, but he can feel his legs (they hurt a lot, but at least he can feel them).
I'm so worried. I want to talk to him...dang them moving to FLorida!
**EDIT** - he is okay now...he's home, no broken bones, just in pain.
Fri, Feb. 1st, 2008, 07:13 am
Yay - it's my first official snow day as a teacher. How exciting ... now what do I do?
As an update from the last post - nothing spectacular is happening. In fact ... nothing at all is happening. My body apparently doesn't want to work the correct way for me, or something like that. Oh well. I'm taking medicine now and soon I'll be taking more medicine. So maybe something will happen then. I'm bummed, to say the least. I know, I know - we're still young and have plenty of time to do this stuff. I just want it done now. I think that would work best for us. And he's already gotten so excited about it. I hated telling him what was going on...
In other news, I'm thinking about volunteering at the Detroit Zoo this summer. You only need 20 hours per year to stay on their list. I think it would be a great experience and would look really good on my resume.
Alright, it is now time to go back to sleep for me. I'm so excited to spend my day being lazy again...i'ts been so long.